I got back from the clinic early and wanted to call everyone! Of course, I called the guy who is responsible for all these. Jan! He was so excited! For the first time, we cried, tears of ultimate joy!

Then I wanted to call Jan’s parents but it is 4am in Netherlands. I then called my mom. I told her the good news! She was so glad and kept saying Ameen…Ameen. She told me not to climb stairs too much or eat too acidic food. She told me not to be so active anymore, like running or rearrange teak furnitures in my house. She told me to take lots of water and vegetables and fruits. Lots of advice from the grandma of my baby! hehehe. I then called Auntie Bee. My 2nd auntie. I told her that I am pregnant and she told me she knew already! My mum just spoke to her. Good news travels fast! I called Auntie Noor. My smallest auntie and I told her that I am pregnant. This time I am faster than my mum. hehehe.

In the evening, after Jan got back from him office, we decided to call Jan’s parents. They were overjoyed. Everyone was congratulating me and Jan and everything was so perfect. I told them about the 2 tests that I did and the doctor visit this morning and how happy Jan and me are. We also told them that the baby is arriving in July. This is their 1st grandchild for them and for my parents as well. This is going to be an exciting pregnancy!!

I woke up super early and kept my morning urine for check at my GP. I also did my 2nd pregancy test just to make sure that I was not dreaming yesterday. Again, 2 lines. I love you God!

At 8.45am, I reach my GP Clinic. I am so excited yet somehow nervous and worried if the result is negetive. If it is negetive, I am gonna sue the brand of test kits I bought last night.

About 15 mins later, I saw Dr Wong. A very nice and sweet lady doctor. She listens to my story and I showed her my fresh morning urine. She gave me a piece of slip of paper and asked me to go room near the ladies and see a lady over there. I wnet out and proceed. Saw the lady and she took my bottle and did the test.

The most nerve wreaking and nervous moment in my life! I saw only one red line. How is this possible? I am gonna call my lawyers. After 1 or 2 mins later, a faint line starts to show. It is not dark but there was a line!

The lady ask me to go back to the Dr. Wong’s room to confirm the results of the test. A few seconds later, Dr called my name and both of us staring at the kit. “So? Am I pregnant?” I took out both of my test kits I did last night and this morning and she saw all three kits. She said, “Well…it is pretty faint but it will show up more later. I would say that you are pregnant. Congratulations!” I smiled…and I smiled and I smiled. I wish Jan was with me today but he had an urgent meeting he needs to attend at 8am. Dr Wong told me that I need some Folic Acid and she gave me a list of doctors that I can choose for my pregnancy. I felt out of this world. All my sadness…my tears…my patience…my prayers…I am gonna start a family. Me and Jan will have a family. Finally…our dreams come true!

I am offically one month pregnant!!

I began to realised that I was 5 days late from my last cycle. Could I be pregnant? I told Jan about it. He asked me to get a pregnancy test kit but I just don’t feel like being dissapointed again. Me and Jan have been trying for 15 months already. And everytime I missed a day, I rushed out to buy tons of pregnancy tests kits and everytime I try, I get dissapointed.? There were times that when I found?a negetive result on the test kit, I get so nervous to tell Jan as it is difficult for him to accept the dissapointement as well. Both of us wanted so desperately to start a family. Everytime we pass by a baby in a pram, we would get quiet. we don’t dare to say anything as we are afraid we might hurt each other feelings.

Jan convinced me to get a test kit at the pharmacy in Harbourfront. I bought one of the cheapest one, knowing that I will get a negetive result again.? We went up to the 3rd level, to our gym and both of us went our seperate changing rooms.

I couldn’t wait. I removed the test kit from it’s covers and without even reading the instructions on the leaflet, I proceed. I have done this so many times, I just know how this thingies worked! I placed the test kits on the edge of a border in the ladies changing room while I changed into my gym clothes. 3 to 4 mins later, I took the test kit and read the results.

Wait a min!! Guess what?? The line..the freaking line which I have been begging to see for the last 15 months is getting darker and darker!! I was shocked. Seriously shocked. I even thought I was shaking. I go…”huh??!” How is this possible?. Well…of course it is possible. I took my temperature, checked the position of my cervix, count my ovulation dates, everything I did. And I hit Jackpot! I think…

I saw one red line and one faint line!!!

I took the test kit and put it back into it’s covers and rush to the male changing room. Jan was fixing his hair, as usual.
I showed it to him. I say…”Jan! Look! Got 2 lines?! Am I pregnant?”. He saw it and we looked at each other. “Well lieverd?(sweetheart in Dutch)…I think you are…I saw two lines too!”. We hugged! We kissed! We hugged again! We kissed again!. There were tears in my eyes. I can’t wait to tell Jan’s and my parents the good news. But we have to get doctor’s confirmation first. Who knows..there could be a mistake…