My pain
Who knows…
Nobody
Only me…

Dreamt about a baby again
He was a strong one
Skin so white as his father
So smooth and soft like baby powder
Eyes as big as his mother
Brown and looking at me
Fingers so tiny and frail
Sleeping only in a cloth diaper
Sleeping so soundly in his crib
Why is this only a dream?
Why not a reality?
Why is he not in my arms now?

What do you want?
Happy now?!!
What are your plans?
Do you have a plan for me?
Do you enjoy watching me like this?
I have so much faith before
I have so much love for you before
I wonder now if there is a God

This pain seems endless.
This headache seems forever
No will to live
No one to talk to
No shoulders to cry on
I am alone…
This pain…
My pain…