Hi!

What a beautiful morning. Slightly hot and humid but it is nice to see the sun shining so beautifully. Daniel is taking his morning nap and he caught slight cough and cold. But he is doing fine.
Quite a few things has happened last week. The Penninkhof twins are doing great! The smaller twin is catching up so much that he is about the same size of the other twin. I still couldn’t think of a nicer name to differentiate them yet. Any suggestions?

I bleed a little on Saturday afternoon while shopping with Daniel and Jan at Carrefour. Not so much blood. Nothing to worry about. Daniel was such a darling. He sat at the front end of the trolley for 1hr without making any noise. He just like to grab things if he could reach them! I love Daniel so much. He likes Cookie Monster from the Sesame Street so much. And when I make the noise of Cookie Monster, he looks around for his hand puppet. He is such a smart baby. He eats very good now. I made porridge for him. Rice, carrots and minced lean chicken. Boiled and puree a little. He absolutely loved it!
We also have a house to live in Holland!! Yaaaaaaay! Finally, my dreams comes true. A roof over my head that we can finally called ours!! The house is quite spacious and unique. Try clicking on this link to see photos of the house. Of course we need painting, some repair works here and there, but try to visualize it empty..:)
Click here to have a look at our new house

So…I guess most of you guys know I am pregnant….pregnant with twins. Yes! Yes! Thank you! Thank you! Everyday, I got people congratulating me. But to tell you honestly, I am not that excited. I am still in the I-cannot-believe-I-am-pregnant-with-twins stage. Everyday I have been talking to Jan on how we can get help when I deliver the Penninkhof twins. It is gonna be tough. I bet it is gonna be the toughest part of our lives. I still remember when I first got Daniel. He doesn’t sleep well and wakes up at 1am and sleeps at 6am. I was crying everyday. I can’t wait for Jan to come back and help me. I was so tired. There are tons of visitors but none helped. Breastfeeding was a complete failure. No one teached me. Daniel was very impatient, always hungry. I was so desperate for help.

Now…with twins…I wonder how I am gonna cope with everything. Daniel is so active now. He can’t walk but he wants to stand and walk. I have to help him all the way and he saw something he wants to take, he made a detour, I didn’t want a detour, he screams! I am not ready for 2 more Daniels.

Ever since I found out I was pregnant, my headache throbs likes no one business. I have been popping pills everyday and taking all the rest I could ever take. I tried eating every 2 hrs, small meals and it works…but only sometimes. I felt nauseating all day and when I hung my head over the toilet bowl, nothing comes out! Nothing! Other than headaches and nausea, I have breasts tenderness. But I can handle my boobies. They don’t create any problems for me.
Today is Valentine’s Day and I am feeling so sick. The bright glare from the outside sun hurts my eyes really bad. I removed my contacts and put on my glasses and it hurts as well. I think I have 1 more month of suffering and then I am done.

I posted a photo of the little twins. Both twins are about the same size now. I am pretty sure the smaller twin will be bigger than it’s twin. He is catching up fine.

What a nice day it is today. I woke up and wanted to see Dr. Tan as I was bleeding quite a bit yesterday night. Jan was also quite worried. At 11.45am, I was at the clinic. Dr. Tan wanted to do an ultrasound and I was hoping that the baby would be alright. Suddenly Jan says, “Hey! I saw 2 sacs!”. I told him to stop making lies and he told he is not making any lies. Dr. Tan also said I am having twins.

What??!!!! My idea of an ideal family consists of me, Jan and Daniel. 2 more babies??!! Does that mean I will have to take care of 3 babies when I am alone in the Netherlands?!! What the……

Dr Tan also says one baby is not doing as good as the other. One baby is much smaller than the other and I have to take care. He wanted to admit me to the hospital but I said I want to stay at home.

So…I am pregnant with twins! I am a dead duck!

Hey Folks!

I don’t know how to start and where to start. I am dumb founded myself. I was 4 days late with my period and out of curiousity, I checked using an expired pregnancy test kit. You can imagine how shocked I am when I saw 2 bright lines staring at me. My mum was in my house when I checked and I rushed to her and told her about it. She wanted to cry. Eh? Why crying? I thought she always wants me to be a baby making factory. She is nervous for me as Daniel was only 6 months old now and if everything turns out well, I will give birth when Daniel is 14 months old. He is still in a naughty and playful stage. She wondered if I can cope with everything. We are moving to the Netherlands in April - May this year and with a small baby and me being pregnant. The packing, the unpacking, the cleaning of the new house….why am I pregnant now?!

I called Jan. He was on his way from the PSA building to the Sales Building. I told him I saw 2 lines and he did not believe me at all! He said I was trying to scare him. I swore so many times that I am not lying. He asked me to take a photo of the test that I made and emailed it to him. I did it! I emailed it to him! Yet still he doesn’t believe me! He said the pregnancy test kit was done when I was pregnant with Daniel! Unbelievable!!

He got home that night and I did the test all over again and showed him the 2 lines. Now he believes me! He was also shocked! He kept saying that in order to get pregnant with Daniel, we done lots of tests and spent lots of money. And now, it is so easy for me to get pregnant!. He was quiet the rest of the evening. I beginning to wonder if he ever wants this baby.

The next morning, he was looking very serious and said, “What do you think Haseenah? Can we cope with 2 babies? You will be very sick the first 3 months. Can you cope with it?” I didn’t answered him. I don’t know what to say….

Goed avond! Hope everyone is doing fine! Me, Jan and Daniel are feeling great!! Couldn’t be more healthier!!

I just want to update on our little baby in the making. The lekker ding is 7 weeks and 2 days old now. He is doing ok. On Monday, on my way back to Singapore, from Desaru,Malaysia, I started to bleed and having little stomach cramps. I stop carrying heavy stuffs and just concentrate on getting back home. The reason for the bleeding is quite unknown. I experience a shocking moment when I am at Desaru. I and family was at the beach and we witness 3 people drowned in th esea. One person was saved and was blue and unconsious and 2 were reported dead. All this happen right infront of our eyes. I saw the parents of the 2 children who were dead and they were crying and running here and there begging people to help them. Lots of people try to swim in the sea to help but the waves were too strong. Even a jetski cannot get really far! It was a traumatic moment for all of us and I especially could not sleep at night. My heart was beating so fast and I was really afraid of what I had witnessed! The next day, when I woke up, I was bleeding…

I went to see Dr Tan today and the baby is not growing as much as he predicted. He checked and said that I am not bleeding anymore but I do have a small infection somewhere in there. He also says that the blood that I am passing out is from the placenta. He took my blood and sent it to the lab and did an urine test as well. This afternoon, he called and told me about the results of the blood test and says that the baby is fine. My HCG level is at the high side 75,000mIU/ml, which is good. I am glad. All my worries are gone! Everything is back on track again!

So..no worries!! He wants me in bed for 1 week! Complete rest in bed. He wanted to put me in the hospital but I said NO! I will miss Daniel too much! Supri is still here and my mum will come and help me and stuffs! So no worries! And Jan bought me a lekker book to read! Lekker!!

I am attaching some naughty photos of Daniel He is so naughty now! He says “Dah!!” all the times and makes funny noises. And if I cough, he coughs too, making fun of me! Very clever!