July 17, 2005

The Big Day!

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 1:26 am

I woke up super early today and getting myself prepared to see Dr. Tan. I wore my usual black maternity top and my yellow funky pants. I look huge! Today I am 39 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I really wonder when I can see my baby boy. I really can’t wait!

I woke Jan up and as usual, he grunts. I lay beside him and talk softly to his ears. “Good morning handsome….I think I am giving birth today..” I always says this line. And I end up dissapointed. Finally after blowing softly into his ears and give him soft kisses on his face, he wakes up. He asked me how I feel and I told him that I feel that the baby will arrive today. He smiled…I asked him if I should bring my labour bag and he says no. It will be embarresing to bring home the big bag. Well….men!

Anyway…hehehe…Me and Jan walked into Dr. Tan’s cllinic and not much people were waiting. We were next. We went in and he asked me how I feel. I asked him immediately, “Can you induced me? I feel really heavy and tired. My legs aches and my back is giving me lots of problem”. He looked at me and asked me to lay down on the bed. He checked me internally and found that the baby’s head is really low. He is surprised! For 2 months, my baby’s head has not been engaged and now, it is really low!

I told him that I have been getting braxton hicks contraction quite a lot. He sent me to the other room and strap the ECG machine on my huge tummy. After 30 mins later, he came in and saw the chart and told me that my I had one big contraction a few mins ago. I did??! Contractions are pretty painless….hehehe

He asked me to lay down on the bed in the consultation room again. He checked me internally and told me that I am 3cm dilated!! What??! Serious ah! But I was feeling fine…women starts screaming when their cervix opens up to 3 cm. I was smiling and joking around. He attached a drip on my left hand and asked me to go down to admission and straight to labour ward. I said to Dr Tan..”I can’t give birth today! I have not shaven my legs…!!” hehehehe.

Jan took me to the labour ward. I still didn’t feel a painful contraction yet. Just Braxton Hick’s contraction every 3 mins or so. The bell boy even asked me if I need a wheelchair. No! I can walk! I want to walk!

So here I am, in the labpur ward. The midwife gave me a dress to wear and I changed. Jan went back to bring my labour bag. I waited for Jan to come back. I was scared. Really scared. My sister came to the hospital immediately after I called her. But she cannot come in. Only husbands…. :(
So…Jan got back and went back home again as he forgot the most important thing. The Camera!! He is too excited I think…hehehe

At about 11am, Dr. Tan gave me an Enema. Don’t ask me what is it…it’s something I am shy explaining! After a few mins later, I was in the toilet, doing my thing…hehehe. I got back to my bed and Dr Tan says he wants to break my waterbag. Sure…no probs. The midwife teaches me how to use the Entonox gas and I did some trial and it makes me real tipsy. I like it!

The waterbreaking process was not something I will forget easily. It was the most painful thing I have ever experienced in my life! I feel when he was poking to break the water, my life went up to myy throat! I really thought I will die. I breathe in too much gas and I was semi unconsious for about 1 min. I had lots of tears in my eyes. It breaks Jan’s heart to see me like this. He touches me forehead and tells me it’s?ok. I was crying and telling him that it hurts so bad.

Soon after the water breaking process, my contractions starts. It hurts bad. Dr. Tan checked and I was only 4cm dilated. He asked me I want Penthidine. I said no at first and when i feel the contractions getting stronger and stronger, I begged for it!

At 1pm, Dr Tan comes in again and checked me and I was still 4cm dilated. I asked the nurse when is the pethidine gonna kicked in. She said, after an hour ago and I still didn’t get much pain relief. She asked me if I want epidural. I said No. I am a tough woman! I can endure this!

At about 4pm, I can’t stand it. I let go of the Entonox and I am begging for Epidural. Dr. Tan checkd me and this time I was 6cm dilated and?calls for Dr Lim, the? anesthetic and it took him about 20 mins to come. My blood pressure was down to 86/45 and my baby’s heartrate went down to 56 beats per minute. I heard?Dr. Tan?was saying to Jan, “This is scary!”??Finally, Dr Lim came and I was asked to turn my body to my side and he asked my name.?He asked my name a few times and I didn’t answer him. I was in a semi consious state. I was completly exhausted and has no energy left to even lift a finger. I was just going..”OOhhhhh….oooohhhh” at every contraction. Dr Lim injected my back and slowly, I can feel that my contraction is getting lesser and lesser. Within half hour, I can’t feel my legs at all. I was completely numb was waist down.?

At 5pm, Dr. Tan checked me again and finds out I was 9cm dilated. He changes into some nice yellow boots and blue gown and white gloves. The nurse asked me to sit up and put lots of pillows behind me so that I can feel more comfortable. The two nurses hold me each from each side and Dr Tan screams…”Push!” I push! and push! and push! and at 5.35pm, my little Daniel came out! He was a huge baby! 53.5cm in length and weighs 3.02kg. Dr. Tan uses a vacuum to suck him out! His heartrate is falling and his umbical cord was found around his neck.

Dr. Tan places him on my chest the moment he was born. I was so happy!! Finally…all the waiting and all the pain…my baby is born! A healthy boy! My love! My Daniel.

June 27, 2005

27th June 2005 - 37 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 11:11 am

36 weeks tummy.JPGTime flew by fast eh! I got everything already…except the Baby Bjorn carrier and a baby monitor. hehehehe. My labour and baby bag are packed and I am ready to go. But the baby seems really comfortable inside. He shows no signs of wanting to come out. He doesn’t kick much now as I know he doesn’t have much space to move around. Me and Jan went to see Dr Tan last Friday and he told us that Daniel is about 6 lbs now. He could be slightly bigger than expected as his parents are also having not so petite frame. hehehhe. I am 1.7m tall and Jan is 1.88m tall. :) Many of you might be interested to see how big my tummy is…well….here it is!

We took a video of the Daniel and he looks really comfortable inside. He is busy sucking his thumb and?I saw his fat cheeks again that day. His tiny nose and cheeks! What a beautiful sight! At this moment in time, I am more ready to see him face to face then to see him via the ultrasound. I am really curious on how he looks like. Imagine me..a dark?Indian and Jan a white Dutch…I am predicting a cafe latte…..hehehehe

My sister in law Djoeke, sent me pictures of her belly. She looks really good and healthy but I can see slight tiredness in her face. I could imagine. Try carrying a watermelon for 4 months!

I feel a bit different in my 37th weeks of pregnancy. My skin gets really dry and itchy, especially my tummy and thighs. I got quite a few (read ALOT) of stretch marks and have been trying numerous types of cream. I like BodyShop Shea Butter cream. Smells so delicious and it is really thick as well. My skin also?gets slightly darker. I look like I have been sun bathing last weekend.? My right hand is numb and my feet is terrible swollen. Dr Tan gave me pills to pee out water so that the baby can grew normally. By the way..the baby’s head is now 8.67cm in diameter!! And guess what? I began nesting! Scrub here! Scrub there! Scrub everywhere! hehehe!

I will write more in days to come. I hope this baby will pop out soon. I really can’t wait!!

June 15, 2005

15th June 2005 - 35 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 1:24 am

Hi there people!

It is 1.30am and I don’t feel so well. I felt nauseous the whole evening and been to the toilet for 4 times already in the evening. I do not have fever or headache. Baby been moving quite a bit. My back hurts like hell. No position can relieve the pain I have on my back. I also started to have contractions a few days ago. Am I experiencing false labour?

I can’t sleep. I feel so uncomfortable. Pelvic area really feels like ripping apart when I turn from one side to the other at night, as a result, I woke up with terrible cramps on my body. I am having one contraction now as I am typing. OOOhhh…..my stomach feels to tight! I felt like bursting. Why is baby moving so much now? Usually, it is about 10 to 12 movements in an hour. I think he moves every 5 mins now. I will call Dr Tan first thing in the morning.

I am gettiing nervous. Very insecure. I wonder how can I cope with the pain of true labour. Knowing that it could happen anytime now, I feel like a wreck sometimes. I sometimes asked Jan, “What if I die?” He will always answers, “You won’t die”. Then the next question I would ask him is, “What if I can’t stand the pain?” He always answers, “They got epidural.” hmmmmm…..

I am gonna drink more water and rest. Let’s see how I will feel. I am having a mild contraction now again.

I will keep all of you posted! Take Care!

June 7, 2005

7th June 2005 - 34 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 1:17 pm

Hi there folks!

Guess what time I slept last night? 4am!! My God! I woke up at 2am and wrote an email to my sis in law in the Netherlands. She is pregnant too. She is due in mid August and I am due in mid July. My aunt called me at 12pm and asked me if I am still in bed. I just woke up and I told her I couldn’t sleep well at night. She kinda giggled at me. She got 4 kids and she knows what I am going thru now. My mum called me at 10am and ask me if I had my breakfast….I have not woke up yet….my God!

Oh my dear sweet sweet sweet baby….give me a huge kick and break the water….I want you out of there… *sometimes I feel this way*

My dear female cat makes noise again at 6.40am. I picked her up and threw her in the bathroom. I am getting really tired and frustrated. Imagine carrying 13kg extra and have no sleep….how would you feel. When I finally sleep at 8am, my dear female cat makes noise again. Why oh why….. Jan let the cat out of the bathroom…I just want to sleep…can’t anybody understands that.

I have booked my tickets to Netherlands this December. This time we will travel as a group of 3!! A family!! Flying off on the 15th Dec and back on the 2nd January. Must be really cold in December! Can’t wait!

June 6, 2005

6th June 2005 - 34 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 10:07 am

Finally We’ll Meet

I love you, little baby
You’re such a part of me.
Can’t wait to hold you in my arms,
And hug you tenderly.
No matter what you look like,
You’re beautiful, my love,
A precious gift bequeathed to me,
From heaven far above.
Each time I feel you moving,
My heart is filled with joy,
To think that very soon I’ll hold
My little girl or boy,
I’m counting every moment,
Til you’re mine at last, my sweet
It won’t be long until your birth,
Then finally we’ll meet.

June 1, 2005

1st June 2005 - 33 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 5:19 pm

Hi there Folks!

33 weeks tummy.jpgI asked Jan to take some pics of me and my tummy last night. I felt that I had?a basketball under my top last night. hehehe. I and Jan went to the warehouse last night again. It was a short trip, like 1/2 hr I think. We then walked to Gallery Hotel and had some calamaris, potato wedges, chicken nuggets and hor fun for dinner. Yum! I realised something last night thought. I could not bend down. Meaning…if the table is too low, I have to bend and I can’t do that. Jan is convinced that I am really pregnant!

It was a nice place to have a quiet dinner. Candle light dinner for S$30!! Excluding drinks of course! It was so nice to sit close to Jan and spend our nights this way. He has been awfully busy for the last few weeks. I wish we can go out for dinner often before Daniel pops out. Many of my friends asked me to go out as often as I can with Jan before the baby pops out. I would love to go to a resort or to the zoo but Dr Tan advise me not to. It is tough walking for long distance. I was gasping for air yesterday when we checked out the gallery hotel!

Today, I set up the nursery. I unpacked the mattress plastic cover and covers it with a fitted sheet. Tie around the bumper as well and fixed the Klamboe (mosquito net). I took a short rest in between and I did some thinking….

I asked myself, can I be a good mom? Will I get frustrated if the baby wakes up every hour? Will I panic when the baby has a slight fever? How do I know how many times to feed the baby? What does green mushy poo poo means? Circumsized or not? I got so many unanswered questions. I feel scared actually. Maybe it is normal for first time mother to feel this way….

May 31, 2005

31st May 2005 - 33 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 1:14 pm

Tembek-2.jpgI woke up pretty late today. Slept quite late last night as well. At 2.30am. Woke up twice I think, grabbing my inhaler as I could not breathe well or I when I am wheezing. Woke up again at 6.30am to grab my dear noisy female 3 yr old cat from outside my bedroom door and throw her in the study room. She did this every morning. Anytime between 4am till 7am. Really annoying! If I let her in, she will hide under the sheets and start grabbing toes and sometimes sucking toes and me and Jan just couldn’t sleep anymore. Anybody wants to adopt this cat?! hehehehee…..

For those of you who are interested to see my dear female cat who simply loves attention so much…here it is! Isn’t she cute!? She is a noisy one! Well…all women are noisy!

Today, I had two strong cramps in my lower abdominal while I was sleeping, I think at around 9am. It woke me up, but I am convinced that it is just Braxton Hicks contraction or false labour. I went back to bed straight after the contraction stops. At 1pm, I encountered such tremendous cramp again. It went on for about 6 mins. Tears developed naturally and I feel like calling my mum. Bad idea if I do that! She will panic much more than me and she will call everyone she knew and before you know it, my house will be super crowded! If this happens, instead of having false labour, I will have real labour! And I do not want to go into real labour now…I am only in my?33 weeks.

Talking about the pain, it starts from the top part of myuterus and went into my back and then finishes off at my lower abdominal. In general, whole tummy is in pain. This is my first pregnancy and I have no idea if this pain is Braxton Hicks or false labour or indigestion….I wish there is a book about pain…

I also got quite a few replies and emails from mother-to-be from all over the world. Thank you very much for all your sweet words and wishes. Thank you for reading my complains and ups and downs. Once this little prince comes out, I will inform all of you so that you will the first ones to see his cute face! I can’t wait!!

May 25, 2005

25 May 2005 - 32 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 11:24 am

Baby @ 32weeks.jpgWow! How times flies. I can’t believe it that in less than 2 months, I am going to be a mom! My tummy is getting really huge and I always wake up with headache and indigestion. My rib cage do hurt now. As for Braxton Hick’s contraction, I have no idea if I have ever experienced it. I do get cramps almost everyday but at the end of the cramp, I asked myself whether is it false labour pain or stomache ache pain. hehehehehe. My feet and thighs hurts a lot. I am very heavy now and moving around for few hours is a problem. Usually, I can move around or shop for the whole day but now, 3 hrs is very tiring.

My little one is doing great! He doesn’t kick much now. He moves alot. And when he did it, I usually felt ticklish. I would then rub my tummy and tell the baby to stop moving so much. He loves to move ALOT when I am reading late at night. I can put a remote control on my tummy and see it swaying! Amazing! And when Jan poke into his head or butt, he poked back! Jan was so amazed! Last 2 weeks, he was in the breech position with his legs extended. But now, his head is down but still in an extended position.

We bought so much for the arrival of this baby! We got car seat, moses basket, furnitures, toys, bottles, pacifiers, so much!! It came to a point where I don’t know what else to buy. Oh yeah…Baby Bjorn carrier…I haven’t got that one yet….

Dr. Tan advises me and Jan to see him on weekdays instead. He says that if I needed to come in to the A&E on weekdays, there is more obs available. Kinda true. I do not intend to give birth now. I want to give birth to at least a healthy 7 lbs baby. :)

April 19, 2005

19th April 205 - 27 weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 5:47 pm

haseenah 27 weeks tummy 2.JPGI have been watching quite a few of birthing videos and even when the mother underwent an emergency C-section, I cried.? I cried quite a lot these few days. When the contestants in the Amazing Race cried, I cried too! Hmmmm….

Jan and me will be attending a dinner and dance this Friday and I have no clue what to wear. I have to dress up formally and all my skin tight dresses don’t fit anymore and I don’t feel like spending S$200 on a formal maternity dress as well.? I went into my wardrobe and tried clothes that I can find which fits. I found 2! I decided to wear the black one (see pic on the left). My bump is growing at an incredible rate. Every movement the baby makes,?I felt it. Sometimes I couldn’t sleep at night because of his kicking. I sweat a great deal and I can finally get some shut eye at 3am, on most days. Some days are just so tiring for me.

I went to see Dr. Tan last weekend and he is super nice to me. The whole ultrasound pic can fit only my kid’s head! Boy! This guy really grows. Dr Tan says that he has done quite a bit of catching up! Hey…Maybe listening to Mozart everyday really helps. :) Dr. Tan also tells us that the baby is in perfect health and doing really good. We are so glad. :)

April 14, 2005

14th April 2005 - 26th weeks pregnant

Filed under: My Pregnancy with Dani — haseenah @ 12:19 pm

6 months pregnant! Yippee!! 3 more months to go and I have a family! I am feeling good. Just a little bit of heartburn and night sweats. I sleep with the aircon and fan on. Jan is hiding under the comforter all night. He loves sleeping in the cold. hahaha!

My baby is kicking quite heard now. Sometimes, it could wake me up. He usually kicked in the mid afternoon and late night when I am about to go to sleep. I have to keep stroking my tummy to comfort him. It’s funny seeing my tummy moving up and down while watching ER or American Idol on TV. I can feel either it was a kick or a somersault.

I am enjoying my pregnancy so much now. No more vomitting, no more headaches, no more fatigue. Just a little bit of backache. :)

I am going to see Dr. Tan again this weekend. Gonna see how big the baby is now. Will update you all next week with more great news!!